WHY YOU SHOULD START LOVING YOURSELF. NOW.
From the title one may guess that this post is going to be one of a narcissistic kind, however I rush to reassure you – I am here to dare you, to call you upon to fall in love with yourself, to love yourself fully, truly and unconditionally. Here is why… and here is (hopefully) how.
By nature I am a leader, I am that kind of person who dares herself everyday and who tries to accomplish what she wants to. Consequently, I put a lot of pressure on myself, and when I fail – I stop treating myself with love. This knowledge, or better, this interpretation wasn’t with me all the time, actually I got this insight only today. Now I really realise that I lost that feeling of unconditional love towards myself months and months ago.
The setting was as follows. I come to have a relaxing massage (well, in reality I still hope it is OSHO rebalancing massage as they sell it to me) and at some point of the session I begin to cry, because I realise where all of my troubles come from – my relationship with myself. I start to cry and I start to repeat: “I love myself, I love myself as I am, without any condition”, – and then I start asking my own self to forgive me for the treatment I was giving myself. That came to me as revelation, as a deep understanding of how my own existence and my own self is absolutely fundamental. And then I just started to accept myself for who I am today, whom I was in the past and whom I want and will become tomorrow.
Then I just started to contemplate on what are those means that I can actually use to remind myself about this, I would call it, transcendental experience, and I came up with several ideas.
- I love listening to mantras, but I really lost the habit of doing it. Here is the one I am going to listen every morning when I wake up starting from now.
- I am going to read a couple of books on objective setting and on love towards oneself. Here is one I have in mind (only in Russian, sorry).
- I am going to repeat that I love myself day after day until I feel it so much that I do not need this repetition any longer.
- I am going to set aside some time for myself. Exactly today I will be having a call with Ellen Huerta (ex-Googler like myself), I contacted her because of this interview, and there she explains what bothers me so much these days – having time just for yourself is absolutely essential. So, we will talk this one through as well and I will definitely pay more attention to it starting from now.
Love yourself, love yourself unconditionally, because you deserve it!